fully alive
hey friends. i'm so glad you're here. it's been a while, i know. but tonight, i think i've found my words again. ---- after the messiest few months of my life, i know more than ever before what it feels like to be fully, painfully and wonderfully alive. the truth is, the beauty and love and pain and heartbreak that have come along with that simple yet profound truth have taken my breath away at times. the very things that have never changed for me, changed. my words, which used to be a solace, turned into something i couldn't even write without second-guessing every one of them. my heart turned from filled with butterflies to shattered on the floor. i made mistakes, i doubted myself. i took risks and experienced some of the sweetest moments of my life, along with ones that tore at the very core of who i am. all along the way i would ask myself, why does this hurt so much? isn't love supposed to be simple? isn't summer supposed to be the time of my life?...